Two Days before Christmas

Sometimes I wonder why i had children for them to never get along. The three of them are like oil and water and they never mix. The two older ones 35 and 33 male and female usually get along but tonight it was like cats and dogs fighting. My son who is 33 is NEVER and I MEAN NEVER in a good mood!! He was born in a bad mood and he is always right. My daughter is going through a lot of things and she is never in a good mood either. I understand the mood but it just makes it harder and harder for me to be around anyone lately.

Christmas is almost here!!

Well Christmas is almost here and do I buy something for the younger grandkids or let it go since my daughter is not allowing me to see my grandchildren? What do you do in a case like that? Do you buy them something just in case or do you let it go because the two youngest are to young to know the difference? The older ones I am buying stuff for because they are 12 and 10 and they would never understand why grandma didn't buy them anything?

Life

Well I thought my daughter was going to have the happy life. She married someone she had know for mnay years and he adopted her two children and then they had a child of their own together.

Here is where the story starts to change. He was such a LAZY person and would take time off to be with the family all the time. Now as a parent I thought that was a good thing because he was a family man. Wrong he ended up being a child molester to my beatiful granddaughter that the whole family has to deal with that now.

How does a man touch own daughter? That makes me want to vomit and then stab the crap out of him. You think that things are going ok, yeah he an animal!! I don't understand the logic of how the child ends up getting used to it either. How the mother feels so bad because she didn't know it was happening? She is driving herself nuts. That is like a ripple effect and then it drives me nuts because I can feel her hurting.

The youngest boy has no idea why can't see his father who is in jail because of what he did and how do we deal with all of this? Day at a time and trying to get all of this out of your head? How do you do that? How do you explain to a 10 year old that his father was touching his sister for many years? How do you sleep at night as a grandma knowing what they are all going though?

Drug Addicts are so selfish!!

My daughter is a drug addict at the ripe age of 31! Most people start when they are younger and quit by the time they are 31. She has always done everything ass backwards so why change now.

She has 4 beautiful children who are suffering thru this whole ordeal. I love everyone of my grandchildren but I sometimes wonder since we are all written down in the book of life why she could have five children and not have the education or the job to take care of them. Then there are people that pay thousands of dollars to be able to have children and she was able to have children so easily.

Yesterday she got out of jail and came to the house looking to take back both of her younger children one is one year old and the other one is three. Well for once the father actual spoke up and didn't let her just walk away with his daughter and her child support. I think he has grown 1/2 a ball now, not quite the full set. Maybe this time he will really fight for his daughter who is only 1 years old.

My grandson who is three I had to stand up to her to the police because she wanted to come and grab him away and put him back in an unsavory conditions. There is just so much going on in my life right now that I am ready for the crazy house. One day at a time and asking God for help all the time to get thru this whole situation. Hopefully she will realize that she is part of all this that is going on and stop making herself so damn inoccent.

The hardest part is she is taking my grandchildren away from me, but you can't have everything in this world. She rips through my heart when she does that but that is what life is all about.

Vicious and Evil Daughter

How could my daughter who is a drug addict sit and say that she would rather her son go to the state then where he is at safe and sound at her sister's house. How evil can she be? She has a 3 year old son that saw her smoking a pipe with crack, then a few days later get arrested and now she is so selfish that she thinks it is better for him to go and stay with strangers than with family. I really don't know who she is anymore or how she can do or say the things that she says.

For years we have put up with her stealing, lying, telling people stories about all of us that are not true and yet on some level I am supposed to turn the other cheek which is broken and don't know if I have the energy to do that anymore. I am sitting and my head is spinning since I read all the IM's on her phone for only three days of all her wheeling and dealing with drugs and drug addicts and stealing and she wants this poor little boy to be put in the state system. What a sick person she really is.

She lies so well she doesn't know the truth from a lie anymore. How do people do this to their own children?

I really don't have the energy to fight her anymore she has made her bed and now she can stay in because she is very evil to do what she has been doing.

Broken hearted!

Last night I found the phone of my daughter's and it has broken my heart to see how bad she has been addicted and what she has been up to. She has ripped off so many people that want to kill her. She has used her older daughter as as tool to do the things that she has been doing and she is only 12 years old. We are hoping that she can save her and make her understand that the things she has been doing have been WRONG!

I do not know how involved she has had the children but she is way more into the drugs than I thought was possible. Why? She was a good mother always worrying about how they looked and how they were dressed in and so vain about herself I don't know what happened.

Pain clinics are the worst things around they get people addicted and they don't care where they get their money from or what happens to their patients. What a big farce...

Why should I feel guilty when I didn't do anything but TRUST the person again!

How not to feel guilty is an interesting concept! Now the person who is on drugs has no problem stealing from you all the time but when you make them have to face the problems they have caused in the family with their children, siblings, parents, aunts, uncles and I could go down the list.

Then they show up at your job and act like nothing is going on.very hard not to trust your own child because you don't know what they are going to do next. Have to have locks on your doors in your home and change the locks on your front and back door. The person doesn't see all the damage they are doing in this world to so many people.

Some people want to just get what they want and how they want it and not care about you. Just not a fair life we are living on the edge all time and not knowing what bomb shell is going to drop next.